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Ideas on balancing entrepreneurial drive with wellness, bringing to life new ideas while living well

Just Rolling with It

October 21 · Issue #68 · View online
Pursuing our dreams, not theirs.

Ideas on balancing entrepreneurial drive with wellness, bringing to life new ideas while living well ourselves and making space for what matters in a well-balanced life.

I mentioned this question a few weeks ago. It’s been kicking-around my consciousness for a while now.
Most of my life I felt ashamed and/or embarrassed to be seen. I’m tracking some of this back to a childhood heavy on criticism and very light on praise.
Pretty much all the attention I remember receiving was critical. This generated strong feelings of always being wrong.
If I felt wronged, the other person must have had a good reason to make me feel that way . It was always my fault. I felt guilty and ashamed as a result.
Ouch! It hurts remembering this, not to mention writing it down.
Then I had bad acne through high school and some of college. My face was a mess, at least that’s what I told myself. I was embarrassed by the breakouts that seemed to be always there. This added to my fear of being seen.
I experienced these conditions as more than enough to question my worthiness.
But wait, there’s more ;)
My childhood also had the theme of “who do you think you are” running through it. Adults in my family were also afraid of being seen.
This resulted in a constant suppression. The suppression began the moment something I did might catch someone’s impression.
Then it manifested as the “who do you think you are” thing. For example, “who do you think you are to be different than those other…kids, students, interns, etc.”
Just Rolling with It’s helped me become more comfortable being seen. As a result, I’m able to establish more connections with the world around me.
This feels refreshing and liberating. I feel grateful for this shift.
How about you? Do you deserve to be seen? Why or why not?
Let me know by replying directly to this email.
Catch you next week, with my gratitude,
P.S. - If exploring the shame concept connects with you, don’t miss this week’s podcast. Scroll down to find it.
Semi-Random Thoughts
This past week, I experienced my worst week’s sleep in recent memory. It’s renewed my appreciation of how important sleep is. I feel fortunate to average about 7.5 hrs/night at around 72% sleep quality.
I use the Sleep Cycle app to track these stats. When the #’s drop below these marks, I experience things taking longer than usual, a drop in patience levels, as well as a mild sense of sadness. Things feel less hopeful when I’m tired.
Fortunately, using the app helps me become aware of the reasons behind these tendencies. If the stats are low, it’s easier for me to understand why I’m feeling the things listed above.
Understanding them helps me take action to work with them. Many times a midday power nap does the trick. I feel grateful Just Rolling with It’s helped me appreciate this awareness and build the tools necessary to work with difficult situations like lack of sleep!
Image of the Week
Good Night
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Current Reading List
The Abundance of Less: Lessons in Simple Living from Rural Japan by Andy Couturier
Music of the Week
Traxsource LIVE! #193 with Enoo Napa by Traxsource
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Podcast of the Week
Brené Brown: Can We Gain Strength From Shame? : NPR
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