I’m writing this on my way home from London. It was a quick trip. It’s the first time in about 20 years I was in London by myself.
I lived in London once for 6 weeks. This was a few years after I graduated. It was for the first job I enjoyed.
I was in London solo to test a new transatlantic communication technology. I was working with colleagues in Frankfurt and New York.
I decided to rent an apartment, instead of stay in a hotel. I was alone in the apartment. I was working by myself, in a remote part of London.
I was alone all the time. I did go out at night. I tried to see the sites during the day. But even then, I was alone all the time.
Thinking back, it felt like a lonely time. It may have been the first time I experienced loneliness. I don’t think I realized it was loneliness at the time.
I think I ignored the loneliness. Then I numbed it out. I started drinking a little more than usual in the evenings to numb myself to the loneliness. I think that started a pattern of drinking that would last 20 years.
This time felt different. This time I was in London for the Ethereum Name Service Workshop.
There were 25 of us together during the day, then the evenings. I knew people, shared common interests and felt connected.
I’m not drinking any more. I was able to recharge in the evenings as a result.
I also have a wife and son waiting for me at home. Leaving them was hard. It’s the first time I’ve been away since our son was born two years ago. I’m now writing this on the plane, as I fly back to them.
Just Rolling with It’s made this shift possible. This trip was another reminder Just Rolling with It works. I feel grateful for this.
My gratitude to you as well, for allowing me to share this reflection with you _/|\_
Catch you next week,